Often times i find myself wondering where to go to next, whats the next great thing to see or do. Other times i find myself "resting in the eddy's". Today, im resting in the eddy's.
This, however, is not a good thing.
If you have never been canoeing/kayaking then maybe this analogy doesnt make much since so, just to make sure im clear on what im thinking im going to elaborate.
When you set out on a "maiden" voyage down your local stream/creek typically you have a canoe or something of the like and paddles and misc other things to carry you through the trip. Typically you paddle hard, rest, paddle hard, rest, pick up the boat and portage, paddle hard rest, pull over eat lunch...etc etc you get the idea. Life is like this "trip" in a lot of ways and our relationship with Jesus also is very similar.Often we want the ability to control where we go and how we get there. We plan out our trip even down to the time in which we want to be back home. Ive found that GOD's plan for me is his and mine is mine. They are almost always two different things. Try to go on a trip sometime, canoeing or a road trip, dont pick anything except a direction and go. You wont do it. You cant do it. Its too scary too irrational but our relationship with Jesus really asks us to do that very thing. So anyway back to the canoe trip. So your setting your boat into the water loading everything up and heading out. As you travel you find various types of "terrain" along the way. Those paddles sure come in handy when the going gets slow and you are in a hurry and they also come in handy when the going gets tough and you need to steer through tthe rapids. Many times along the way youll see what is called an "eddy". this is that calm spot behin a rock set in the stream. Those are nice. Calm, peaceful, im in control, no pressure forcing me to move, yet "life" just rushes by all around you.
That is where i find myself. Going nowhere. waiting for the signal, wanting to be in the flow again but too complacent to venture out. Sure im enjoying myself but that is so superficial and only lasts moments. I need your direction.
I miss my children.
anyways , just a few random thoughts for you Tom. I hope all is well and yes i do read your blogs from time to time.
Love you guys and miss you all very much,
Shane | 
